We've made it this far!!! Tired and deeply in love. I can't believe he's already one month, it feels like I just gave birth to him yesterday. When people told me that it was going to go by really fast I honestly didn't think it would go by this quickly. My pregnancy felt so long that I just wanted time to speed up and now that I have him I want time to slow down. His newborn clothes is finally starting to fit nicely and it's making me kind of sad because I want him to stay a tiny baby.
This past month I've taken so many photographs on my phone that I had to upgrade my phone storage. I know I have images that look the same but if he is slightly tilted to the left I feel like I have to keep it lol I never thought deleting a photo would be that hard! The funny thing is that when I was expecting I thought for sure I would capture all these memories on my Canon, boy was I wrong!
I'm laying here while breastfeeding him at 10:38pm trying to find the words to express the feeling I get when I look at him..... I can't believe he's mine! He's so beautiful. The most perfect little eyes,lips, fingers and toes. I love the way he grunts when he stretches like a big boy.. I love the way he fits perfectly in my arms. I love how he recognizes my presence. I love how he instantly feels calm when I pick him up. He makes me so proud.
It's hard for me to express the type of deep love I feel. When I look at him I remember being sad at the thought of not being able to have a baby and I can't help but to think BOY WAS I SO WRONG IF ONLY I KNEW I WAS GETTING WHAT I WANTED.
I'm still so emotional! I look at him and I instantly know that life will never be the same without him in the most wonderful way. The thought of him growing up and leaving home is scary lol I now understand my mother. He has giving me a new view on life and I'm so grateful for that.